Why can’t it be just different than usual?

I have to close my eyes
Every night.
And do it every night.
Why can’t I keep them open
And sleep and dream
Every second?
I have to do everything
Right every time.
And do it all the time.
Why can’t I do things
Wrong and have no cries
And guilts for every one?

Scared

First time in my life
I am scared!
Scared in a way,
I have never been before!
First time I think,
What if…
First time in my life
My hands are shaky!
Shaky in a way,
They have never been before!
First time I feel,
What if…
This is so weird,
To feel this way.
I have never been
On the other side before!
And I am scared.

The beautiful Morning

The gentle breeze
It touched me so softly
And a song so soft
Carressed me back
To the morning.
The new day has begun
And I step out in the world.
The world outside,
Drenched with rain
And fragrances of heaven.
I stepped in that heaven,
With green beauty in my eyes
And the gentle tickle
Of the drizzle
Is all I remember.
I still want it some more.
The beauty of this new day
Is captured in all my senses.
I open my arms
And welcome the
New morning.
A new morning which
Is so beautiful
As one of the
Best of all mornings
In this new city.
The city to whom
I am a stranger.
The city where
I came with dreams
So beautiful.
But this new morning
Showed me the beauty
Of this new city to me.

The Cold Sweetness

Once again we are
there,
The same place
I remember!
I hope that you too
remember!
With the taste of the same
Cold Sweetness melting
On our tongues,
I wonder if you
Too remember the same!
I remember them
with certain fondness
and wonder if you too
do the same!
Sometimes I see a
glimpse of something
and wonder if it’s the same!
The smile that hides
A million secrets
Unlike mine says nothing.
Yet I wonder the meaning
Of each bubble of smile
And wonder if it’s the same!
I collate the moments
To put them in my drawer
To remember and cherish
All the wonderings that
I did today
And have been doing.
Some day if I am lucky
I’ll know what you mean
But I wonder how
It will feel
To miss all the wonderings
That I cherish!
When your doors are open
And you close them so soon,
I dare not enter too far
For I may not
Be able to come back.
As you close them so soon
That I fear
to get trapped.
At times I fear that trap!
One day if
I am brave enough,
I will enter
Inside through
the door
And will not fear
It close.
Will see you all
From inside
Cause right now
I just get a glimpse
From the doors
So little open!

All Around

This Kills me
The dullness All Around.
Scared to sleep,
Will wake up
With Chaos All Around.
My mind wandering,
My eyes searching,
With the Unknown All Around.
Never knew stillness
Can be so loud All Around.
I really want some noise Around
To hear something beyond
The silence All Around!

It is not that bad!!!

A sudden relief, a happiness and a smile dat I had when I met a very dear person sometime back and I realized that Time doesn't matter, events don't matter.... If the person is dear to you, he or she will always remain so....

When our eyes met
It still felt d same,
D gentle breeze.
As if there has been
No time or space
Between us.
It felt like heaven
Once again!
I am in Love all over
Again.
Only this time it will b
A selfless love
With just a hope to
See him once more
Every time I see him.

Hey...I am Still waiting

Waiting for those nights,
When I would again
See the dreams
With a Smile!!!

Waiting for the evenings,
When I would again
Try to hurry up
To reach Home!

Waiting for the mornings,
When I would again
Look for excuses,
Not to leave Home!

I hope the ‘Wait’ Ends Soon…

I am confused
And this hurts
And I am not sure
About what is to be done!
I know what I want
And I know I don’t want that.

But, for the time being
I want that those nights
Come soon to me,
When I get up in the morning
With smiles all around!!!